Have you ever had that, kick in the gut feeling when you read something? But have you had it multiple times in a row each day every time you pick up the book? I've been having that feeling several times in the last three weeks which is why you've seen a decreased posting schedule on this here blog. The wind's been kicked out of me and thus left me with a decreased oxygen supply in my brain, ultimately causing...you guessed it, writers block.
Don't worry, I haven't fallen off the wagon with the garden. We've been busy fall planting and summer veggie harvesting. I have an IPhone busting at the gig seams with beautiful pictures to edit and share but quite honestly, I'm just not in the mood to write about plants.
What I am in the mood to write about is the non-profit board I joined that's burdened my soul with the talk of all things abandoned children. But, the topic is so jumbled in my brain I can barely speak a coherent thought about it.
I'd love to write to you about the study I'm working on for some ladies in and out of my church. Some of you are thinking, this sounds like a bible study....you would be right. And then you're thinking...how did anyone agree to let you lead a study? Don't ask, I just told them I was doing one and they haven't caught on that I'm a bit under qualified. Roll with it!
But honestly, the topic of all that is also mind boggling and I've got about two weeks left to pull my brain out of butt and begin writing words to paper so I dare not start typing blindly on the blog about it all.
I'd love to tell you my preschool homeschooling plans are at the forefront of my mind and I'm geeked out about it. Well, let's just say, I'm glad Iz already knows her letters, numbers and colors. She's ahead which allows me to drag my feet right now. Praise God for smart people that make awesome broad curriculum so I can smile and print it off with ease.
(Please note, if you feel the need to send me an email about how I shouldn't worry about "teaching" my 3 year old right now, don't bother. My kid demands daily crafts, inquires about strange things like anteaters and volcanoes and feels the need to memorize every book & song known to man! Let me bring order back to my day by having a "school" schedule for us. And by the way, who ever taught my child the Father Abraham song who had many sons...so help me God, run far away for Abraham and his many sons who shake their right arms, left legs and turn around multiples times are about to come swinging at you from the left and the right. That song will drive my car right off a cliff into your home.)
And ultimately, I need to start writing to you all about Kenya. Specifically Litein, Kenya. PL and I will be visiting there in just 2 months...just 2 short months! (Insert Hyperventilation as I think of an 18 hour plane ride. I fear flying with a passion. I pray for quick intoxication.) See, we love this Home there that currently cares for over 55 abandoned children. They are the hands and feet of Jesus to these precious children.
But here it all gets summed up, remember that kick in the gut feeling I referred to? There are sometimes reasons unbeknownst to you that you will feel compelled to read weird life changing books. And crazy words may jump off the page and kick you in the gut. And they may be words you've heard before but for some reason they decided to drop kick you right here and right now.
"Let's quickly redefine "wealth": If you make $35,000 annually, you are in the top 4 percent in the world. $50,000 a year? Top 1 percent.
Let there be no doubt: Our generation has been entrusted with more resources, wealth, opportunities, and knowledge than any before us. God must think highly of our potential. Let's not squander our legacy on self-absorption or chasing the American Dream, a dream the rest of the world cannot afford. But may we hear from our Savior one day: "Whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for Me (Matthew 25:40)"
-Excerpt from Ms. Understood by Jen Hatfield
( I will say right here and right now you need to read the book above, then this one, and then this one. And then while your at it get a little crazy and open your mind to this one. Because if you call yourself a Christian, which I know for a fact at least 40% of my readers do (yeah I see those subscribed emails!) then you should know that the words Jesus commanded like to care for the orphans and widows, the least of these and to Love because it's the greatest commandment...he meant those words. You can't side step them or pick your favorite commandments or lines out of the bible. He meant it all and expects much from those who have been given much!)
You may have read that and not have had a kick in the gut reaction. That's okay, I did. Maybe something else is meant to knock the wind out of you. Whatever those words are for you, don't take them lightly. They're always meant for a reason, to be pondered, to be rolled over, chewed on, spit out and sometimes picked back up and tasted again.
(Okay that last one is gross but my kid totally did that with a french fry yesterday so it's sitting in my brain salty fresh!)
I promise I'll be back soon with vegetable words of wisdom and probably some more words about other mind boggling topics at hand. But until then, you should pick up a book and read some gut wrenching words.